Don't Ask Me Why (I Can't Cry) Don't ask me why, don't tell me to try, I can't cry, I can't cry, I can't cry these tears inside Dull senses ebb and flow Pulsing greyness, dull ache in the pit Spinning thoughts dizzying, Energy drained completely Thoughts that offer some feeling Lie just beyond the range of my mind My mind feels like an exhausted runner Who has collapsed with his goal just out of reach I can feel the here and now so clearly Like saliva on skin That clarity of aloneness A Dionysian frenzy of living liquid Just below the surface Tears run pins and needles Up and down my nose, But never flow There is a tingling numbness That passes through in waves Making my body fell larger than it is Don't ask me why, don't tell me to try, I can't cry, I can't cry, I can't cry these tears inside Let me sing it to you, let me talk it through -------------------------------------------------- Sitting In The Dark The amplified voice, below resonant tone Unheard perceived beneath, Cascading through to the senses Here I am, Sitting in the dark Looking into the light Untapped, apparent to the dreaming mind The sublime Undermining, undefining Can you hear me Now I want to create a moment for you However fleeting, When all is clear The wavelength in sync Or at least in harmony With the thought wrapped feelings Unfurling, becoming Stretching and caressing Sensuous, oh how sensual The touch of a mind in a resonant tone Truly perceived, if just for a moment Beyond the cage of self --------------------------------------------- In The Beginning Step into the ride, step into the ride Step into the ride that never ends Step inside and strap yourself in Then we begin, then we begin Though it never ends In the beginning, it was not chaos It was quite the opposite It was infinitely the same The Universe was uniform The Big Bang was a seed of chaos Which continues to grow, including through us Each a self similar replica, All different, all the same Off into infinity --------------------------------------------- Poolin' Our Resources Poolin' our resources For what hasn't happened yet Tapping our inner sources Time has come when we can see the change Patterns come to rearrange --------------------------------------------- The Groove Is A Mighty Wave Sometimes it seems so easy The groove is a mighty wave Ride the wave, ride the wave till the end of time I have witnessed the star within Its beauty slices through my soul And I bleed its shimmering light across The time of my life I have held this sphere of gold and lead Since my emergence here beneath the sun and moon I cannot dream it any other way My quest and purpose Are defined by its boundless limitation I simple need to walk this path Absorbing the experience that has drawn me here -------------------------------------------- Sadness Comes Sadness comes around again Sadness comes around Tomorrow's dreams are found in this, To the future we are bound Herded like cattle through hoops of flame Young colt testosterone beating hoof against floor Coded words pass in mumbles all around Heated exchange as hen squawks, ruffled feathers pacing Young woman surrounded by joke-laden barriers Quick smile through litany of the battle at a stalemate Corrosive knots city is death Bleed sapping draining Where's the rainbow's end Mystery hole hidden by dollar signs Soulmate out of reach Life is a sad tale written by Pathos Can't be real Like bloated starving children Belched up by the silent tube screaming coloured fears ----------------------------------------------- It Rained Today Soul is swimming it rained today Standing in the foothills Of some of my grander notions The fog begins to clear Revealing a vaster ocean Sometimes I feel like the pure embodiment Of insatiable want Stomping my feet I am the tyrannical child Unloosing all boundaries I return to the wild Watch it come together then wash away Soul is swimming it rained today Head wrapped in the clouds My feet in the mud I can feel it falling I'm just waiting for the thud How can this persist When the dreams just don't add up I guess this is my education In the logic of dreams And the mathematics Of desire ----------------------------------------------- Tingle, Tingle Little Star Tingle, tingle little star Feelin' your pull though you're so far Coming through like a distant dream Guiding me to my destiny Time moves in a relative way The further/faster you go The faster/further you stay Shouts of angry hope Caress my soul in frozen nights Breaking my hermetic heart From its inward searching Toward the universal The static voice Shining clear light On the fools gold of my desires Which reveal themselves to be ancient Ancient beyond my wildest dreams Has it come soon enough to undo The damage done Or is that the true illusion That damage can be done In this universe Of perfect pain Are the bonds as easy to break As remembering I leave an offering at the door to heaven Along with a request For the experience that may Transform my soul I leave my prayers And await the answer ------------------------------------------ This Cliff (Momentus) Xenophobic in the forest light Demons fed in the cross-town night Subsiding truth of shattered youth The stockyard piled high Out the shuddered sigh The fear creeps in, shatters your stability Standing on the edge of this cliff momentous Falling down and falling through Upward grazing, fretful view Nothing is the known Ignorance is all that's grown Shatter me looking through the eye Flatter free, see who it's scripted by Do unto, to undo, coercion of the art Bled me dry right from the start Give it back, give it back, give it back ------------------------------------------ Rip A New Hole Rip a new hole in your sanity Let the night come in Grab the bull by the horns and ride let loose to the raging desire to exist for its own sake be willing to reinvent yourself from one moment to the next be willing to vent yourself of all the anger face the fear until it melts in brazen red sparks a chernobyl meltdown vent the frustration break the anxiety with white hot rage sear away the guilt burn clear and free feel the raw and the real rip and rend tear to sheds the helplessness of comfort feel the black depression wash in waves push out and out and out march to the beat of your heart faster and faster shine with the light that BLINDS! ------------------------------------------ Stop Before You Tell Me Stop before you tell me This cannot evolve Wielding strength from fragile butterfly wings Of ego sheltering mask of perfect self Discerning the dissecting point Demons dusting up in footprints left behind The decide of who's on the wrong side of the track Holding bundled thorns of the matters of success Flames turning manic and destructive Boiling emotion into steam scolding words Pride bares teeth to feel contact Clinging desperately to patterns left Unkept in times to decide What's to be kept in time to be left behind More at work than you can see Then rising from within The strength of the spark Remembering what was there all along Finding ground under footsteps Tracing the being in balance Beyond scoping visions tightened stare Stretches out to infinity Justice comes as a matter of course The stitching sown tapestry continues in growth Through cycles of grasping and releasing Through time presenting the edges of structures Continue making a past to stand in the present To walk into the future on -------------------------------------------------- Fleeting Moments This is nothing new to me This is what I live for The piercing stare Pinning down that moment of action and word Sending ripples through Planting barbs on The fleeting moments It's not death It's life, the realizations so painfully real The fleeting moments that thread through existence Binding in fear Keeping things at arms length In between Wanting to thrust myself into The fleeting moments The finely hung balance Of joy and regret Remorse thickens the resistance Holds back The fleeting moments